Sometimes in life you get a reality check that makes you stop and think.

Today started after a very bad night, arguement with Matt as he isn't being as proactive as I would like in the job hunting. Tending to favour his Mac and X Box to the job centre Then stress at having to "farm out" Abi due to me going full time and entering the realms of Out of Hour Manager.

Got up this morning and accessed my work emailfrom home to see an email from my Boss to a managing director refering to a VIP visit yesterday when she introduced a client to "all her management team" I wasn't there yesterday so who am I, the bleedin cleaner???

I then found out my SAAB in for repairs that didn't get done yesterday, had been swapped for a focus estate. Now I don't "do" big cars. Too much bloody rear end for a girl who can't do backwards. So Lee drove me to work.

On arrival at work, after asking if I'd had a good weekend, the boss then asked me to move desks, so the new girl who started yesterday could have my desk. I wouldn't mind but it was only Saturday I actually got round to moving there completely only to lugg the stuff back today. Then...

I asked her if it was OK for me to leave 1/2 early so Lee could pick me up and we could be back for his night shift at 6pm. You'd have thought I'd asked for her first-born kid!! So much for all the talk of flexibility on my return to work

After it took me an hour to get my PC set up on email and a printer I then spent the next hour updating my CV!

The afternoon was better, we did monthly reviews for two of the numptees supervisors I will be managing. To be honest they are crying out for development, and that's what I enjoy.

I got home and made my daily call to my cousin for an update on my Aunt, she had been really well Sunday and Monday and even been nodding and smiling.

My cousin was distraught, her mum has taken another turn for the worst and no matter what I said, my cousin feels she is slowly watching her die. Puts my day right were it belongs!